Over the years working in ministry, I’ve heard Christians talk about how if they were living during the time Jesus walked around the Middle East that they’d be His biggest fans. I’ve always responded that it’s easier to say that now because we know that Jesus came back to life after being dead for three days. It sounds convenient.
If we were to imagine ourselves in the four different accounts of Jesus’ ministry (Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John) without knowing about the resurrection, perhaps our story is more like Judas Iscariot. One of things that Judas saw when he saw Jesus was how little can I give to His cause and still get it all. When Judas saw that Jesus wasn’t someone that he could control and his life as follower wasn’t what he expected, he was willing to sell Jesus out for price. There were difficult things that Jesus said and actually commanded—carrying your cross and dying to yourself everyday—become too hard for Judas to hear and follow.
I believe that this is a mirror into our lives as post-resurrection followers. I believe we accept the Savior part but struggle with the Lord/Leader part. The Savior part has to do with heaven and eternity so it’s like a something I can’t control thing. The Lord/Leader part has to do with the here and now so it’s a something that I don’t want to give up control thing.
Jesus wants the best for you and the best for me. He’s committed to providing us a full, complete, and overflowing life. It requires us giving up control and trusting Him. The more we’re around Jesus (reading about Him, spending time applying His teachings), we’ll be confronted with our pride, expectations, and wants.